Hello all you beautiful humans! I hope the days after Christmas and in the midst of Hanukkah find you in the happiest of moods. I pray you had blessed and fun, if not eventful days! I will be posting a “recap” of our holiday weekend tomorrow…just in time for you all to sit down and laugh at our misfortunes, hilarious lives, and craziness. But hey-I loved every moment of it. Today I want to share with you my New Years Resolutions! As you may remember, last year I did 25 goals for the year I turned 25-I am NOT going to be doing that again. While I didn’t do that terribly with succeeding in most our goals, I wasn’t a fan of the long term aspect of a lot of the goals.
Instead, this year, I will be choosing a word for the year, a verse for the year, and I have three “goals” I hope to accomplish throughout the year. If you’re interested, feel free to continue reading!
Last year, I used the word of the year “content” and I found myself becoming more and more content with things I had and situations we were in. This year, I’ve chosen to move inward and work on the word Peace! What does that mean for me?
Peace within our chaos. It’s always going to be a little chaotic in our home-that’s just a fact! There’s 7 of us living in our home! It’s a crazy bunch of people and while I love it, I find myself sometimes a little overwhelmed and frustrated with it all. My aim is to become more at peace with living within the chaos and embracing what that means for our family.
Peace in my actions. I’m a yeller, y’all. I’m also a react-er. This year, with peace in the center of all I do, one way I hope to embrace a peaceful lifestyle is to not be so combative and reactionary towards comments or situations. I’m want to work on being a more peaceful person, especially with my husband.
Peace within Jesus. One of the things I struggle with the most as a Christian is having peace within the decisions and endings God puts in our lives. Between adoption loss, my personal history, and far too many friends who have suffered, I rarely find peace in the fact that it is all in His hands and He is a good, good father. As the new year begins, continues and comes to an end in 365 days, I hope to find more peace in my Saviors promises.
Peace with my(our) past(s). Not just trauma related but everything related. What has happened has happened. I have a lot of insecurities surrounding my marriage based on mine and his histories and it’s unfair of me to bring those into our relationship. I also need to take a step back and recognize I still have healing of my own to do. I wish it was something I could “let go of” but since I cannot, I must fight through the trenches. Healing is not linear and that is okay.
My verse of the year: Titus 2:3-5
“Similarly, teach the older women to live in a way that honors God. They must not slander others or be heavy drinkers. Instead, they should teach others what is good. These older women must train the younger women to love their husbands and their children, to live wisely and be pure, to work in their homes, to do good, and to be submissive to their husbands. Then they will not bring shame on the word of God”
Notice how it says “not heavy drinkers” instead of abstaining completely from alcohol?!
But in all seriousness, this year I want to grow closer to Jesus and what God wants from me as a woman, wife, and mother. A calling I’ve felt over the years is to find a woman in our church(or not) much stronger and “older” in her relationship as a Christian wife and mother and be able to talk to her as a mentor. I also at this point feel the calling to be that mentor to a “younger” Christian. I’m going to print this verse out and tape it to our bedroom door, so I’m forced to look at it every day and fight to be kinder, less gossip-y, more joyous in the day to day calling of being a SAHM, submitting more to my husband, and living fully in His word and doing GOOD.
And my three sort of smaller goals:
–Lose 40 pounds/become healthier for 2018. This may sound daunting, however right now I’m the highest I’ve ever been as a not pregnant woman(about 203lbs). October 31st I was 187lbs so a LOT of this weight was gained through the holiday season and I believe will fall off once I begin moving and not eating cake every meal. My best friend gets married soon and I gotta look good for it! But I also feel absolutely horrendous and unhealthy within this body. (There’s no “unless I get pregnant” clause in this because a goal is to NOT get pregnant in 2017)
–Read 26 books! Last year my aim was 52 and that was just FAR too high. This year I’m aiming for a little higher than what I managed last year(20), while still keeping it a realistic goal.
–Start writing the book and finish writing the devotional I started. During NaNoWriMo, I began a devotional for moms, which was originally going to be a 30 day devotional. After finishing about 14 days, life got too chaotic and I gave up. This year I want to finish writing that. I also would love to begin writing a book that’s been on my heart for a long time…I just need the hours in a day! But I have a lot of support and encouragement from those around me who believe I can do it…so I am ready to try.
I’ll be setting smaller goals for my blog, fitness, and family each month, so stay tuned for those.
What are your goals for the new year? Do you do a word or have goals written out?