I haven’t been writing very much lately and I am sorry for that. Writing is one of my favorite things in the world and I’ve put it far to the back end of my to do list.
Part of the reason I haven’t been writing is just plain old busy-ness; school ending really butted into my alone time and I spend so much time hiking, swimming, and eating picnic lunches with the lovely children. I haven’t been putting a priority on it over spending time with the kids. That’s not going to change.
The other part of the reason is that I’ve been embarrassed to be dealing with a little bit of postpartum anxiety and depression. While it’s no where near what I dealt with after Bug, I’ve felt myself pulling back from most things when in actuality, this is the most important time I attend them. Recent events around the world are totally not helping either.
(We tried to get a family photo in this one!)
And my final reason is I’ve been dealing with a lot of doubt surrounding writing and what I want this blog to be. I love to write and share my life and my kids lives. I love to educate, especially people on sexual assault and abuse and how to deal with and avoid it with your own children. I like to share recipes and do-it-yourselves and I love to rant on how amazing the North Berkshires are. But I’ve been feeling like maybe no one out there wants to read it, or wondering how to talk best to the people who choose to read what I have to say.
That all being said, I’ve decided a few things. Number one, I want to get chances to write throughout the week. I’m still working out actual details on how to make that happen, but it will happen, even if I have to start pumping and leaving the house a few hours on one of Josh’s nights off. Writing is therapuetic and it renews my soul. Secondly, I am actually looking for someone to talk to again. I know this is nowhere near the anxiety I felt with Bug, but I do not want it to get to the point where it is. And lastly, I’m saying forget it and writing what I want to talk about. I know some of you will see my posts about healthy dinners and skip over them; I know others will ignore my advice giving ones on OCD. Some people may just show up to learn about hiking trails and others could hang around only to read the funny and updates on life. That’s all good and fun. My goal is to make you always feel welcome and invited into our home and lives…and like my single friends don’t always come hang out with my kids, not everyone will want to see every post. (BUT if there is something specific you want me to talk about, or elaborate on, do not hesitate to ask!)
I’m really excited to get back into writing and have a handful ready for posting already, including a few hiking/swimming ones, tips and tricks for living with OCD, potluck themes to have at dinners, and a few reviews for books!